So today has been stressful just like the past few weeks for me & I'd like to talk about one of my recent inspirations. Before I give away my inspiration I'd like to explain why the past couple weeks have been difficult for me. I have been in a 2 & 1/2 year relationship but recently my relationship went to hell. Allen the guy I was with, got into a car wreck just right after receiving his license from another accident a year or two ago. That was the start of the downfall of us but honestly a week earlier it probably started, he just changed for the worst & left me to wait. He made more mistakes & one to many so now I'm heartbroken & dying inside. Last week, I heard Lana Del Rey's music for the first time & Summertime Sadness was the song. That was the only thing that helped me at the time, nothing else could. Lana has a certain sadness to her in every one of her songs, she's absolutely beautiful & you can tell from a first look that she's a strong person. The way she portrays herself in her songs & pictures you can tell she has been hurt but hides it away. I relate to that completely, I am the strongest person & I hide everything away perfectly, it's quite a lovely gift. Unfortunately when it comes to Allen sometimes I can't hide it away & that's the only thing I can't hide. I really don't want to go on about my relationship because I don't want to feel the pain. Anyways I love Lana, she has amazing music & she has a 50's look to herself. I love fashion like that, it's classy & sophisticated but very simple. She is defiantly one of my role models & I'm so glad I discovered her music.
XX
Jess
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